Heck, it's summer, aight?

I feel slightly guilty about not posting. But after all, I'm justified. I've been busy doing summer-ish things. But I just wanted to let everyone know that I might slack on posting. Oh, I'll try, yes. But I just wanted to throw out that warning. Um, so, yeah. The weekend was pretty cool. On Friday I went to my sister's school for a while, and for hours and hours on Friday night I looked for my neighbor's cat and dogs. That was exciting... I went to graduation on Saturday, then hung out. I stayed home Saturday night because my throat was killing me. I watched Happy Feet. Yesterday was pretty chill. I went to church, taught sunday school with Derek, and then stayed for a pot-luck. I chilled at my house for a bit, played with this awesome marble-maze thing. Oh, and then, Sunday night, I went to Smiths with Kelsey. And, it was just about the coolest, craziest thing everrrr: the milk we bought started leaking, and it was making a puddle on the floor, and everyone was staring at us! Haha. I loved that. Today I played in the yard with my brother, he drenched me with the dog's water; he dumped it on me. Oh, and then Kels and Julie came over and we ate ice-cream and played super smash bros. It was way cool. Oh, and we were all being Kirby once, and I swallowed Julie, and drowned myself. That was the highlight, I think, of our playing time. Then I went to Derek's house to eat hamburgers, and then we watched Robin Hood Men in Tights, which I had never seen. It's actually a really funny movie, a movie my cousin would likely enjoy. I'll have to tell him. Um, then I came home. I watched some TV with my family for once, which was weird. And, yeah, right now it's almost 2:30 in the morning. I'm only doing this because I know I can sleep in tomorrow. For once. I'd better make the most of it. Sigh. Summer is amazing. Farewell, for who knows how long. Could be a few weeks, could be a few days, could be a mere few hours.

Taking a quick break

So, right now, I'm roller-blading. Yeah, that's right. Not "I was roller-blading." I AM roller-blading. I've still got 'em on as I type. I'm chillin' with my little sister; she's scootering, and I'm blading. This is so weird not having any school or homework. Every year at this time it takes me a while to get used to it. But this year I feel like I have freedom, like, for once. It's crazy. Lately I have been feeling, like, I dunno... weird! Like, I came home at 3:00 AM... and it was FINE. I want my parents to know that I really appreciate their "loosening of the reigns," so to speak. Hm... some random thoughts... I'm wearing weird clothes today. I like 'em. Oh, now I'm going to go play gamecube! Yes. I haven't in forever!!

Woooooo!!!!

School is OFFICIALLY over!!! Yeah!!! I'm gonna go ride my bike!! With my sister!!! She doesn't want me to write her name!!! Tonight I'm going to the movies at 9:30!!! I love summer!!!

You know...

Okay, look. Yeah, I know I haven't been posting in a long time. But you know what? Heck, it's finals week. School is essentially over. It's nice outside. K? So, I've been doing a lot of chilling, just hanging out. Getting in the summer mood, if you will. Today I hung out in bio, then yearbook office for a bit, then to El Parasol, then movies. Right now I'm going to go study, kinda, for my remaining important finals. The others I don't care about. Sigh. I realllly. really. like summer. Yeah, this is a short post; deal with it.

Over

School is over. Essentially. No more classes. Today was freaky. This entire week has been! Yesterday was really cool, I hung out a bunch, went to Smiths, and El Parasol, saw Lisa at the pond. English today was sad, I was crying and Ms. B gave me a big hug; it was amazing. But honestly, I'm going to miss English, that classroom, and .. her.. sooo much. My only consolation is that I'll have her next year. She really is a great teacher, and a very cool person. Precal killed me, but at least it's OVER!! Shockey even signed my yearbook. During Stats, I went in, and the room was pretty much empty. So, I hung out with my 2 bestest friends ever. We chilled around town, Ruby K's.. Mountain.. haha. Then I meandered around at lunch. Went to yearbook, and I'm finally done with everything; I love that feeling. After school I talked with Mr. Y for a little, then headed to bio for a long while, to do test corrections. I chilled w/ Mr. T for once, and I actually got a LOT done. Things are finally coming together. In some ways I love it being the end of school, but in some ways I loathe it. I ache literally from having to say goodbye forever to some people. I'm going to really, really miss some seniors, and I'm going to uber miss some teachers... Mr. T, I'll miss you!! Ms. B. I'LL MISS YOU!! What makes things tons worse is that I won't get to see my best friends much this summer, which is very sad!

But, for now, I still will, which is cool. I'm gonna go chill tonight, maybe sleep for once. Then tomorrow, kite festival, then getting ready for prom for eons. That'll be fun.. then pre-prom party at Paco's, haha, can't wait.. then, actual prom. This weekend will be fun.

Rain..

It's raining outside right now, and I'm thinking 2 things primarily: 1) I love rain, especially the smell of it, and 2) WHY couldn't this have happened earlier?? Haha, no, it's fine. I'm elated anyway. Lately that's how it's been.

So, I went to the park today; I've still got sand in my shoes. Danny is really a funny kid; he's amazing. I love my little brother; often I forget how lucky I am.

Also, I want to say that I'm really, really glad my mom's okay. We weren't sure if she would be, but everything's fine. More than fine..

Oh.. but this is so SAD: Ms. B is super upset as of yesterday. I'm really, really worried about her. I'm not saying anything here, because I'm not sure I'm supposed to, but let's just say she is really depressed, and... all of the pictures of her boyfriend are gone... So, I was feeling really, really cruddy. I wanted to do.. something for her, so I made her a card. And today I bought her starbursts and brought her peppermint. I just hope she's okay.

I certainly am, anyway. A friend told me today that his life sucks. And I yelled a little to emphatically, "Mine doesn't!!" It doesn't. At all. All I can say..


Arg! I'm late for a talent show; my sister's playing the piano in it. Gotta run!

Happy Mother's Day

Amazing..

I officially deem The Classic Crime as amazing. My favorite song: "Who Needs Air" by The Classic Crime. It's really amazing what this song does to me... I can say the whole song now.. I rarely am able to do that with a song.. Here're the lyrics:



I long to taste adventure like the nature of the sea,
Always moving, always hiding all the creatures from beneath.
Singing silent songs of sadness my heart waits for its chance,
To dance upon the ashes of my burned up little plans.

And I stand alone before the night.
My nakedness is so clear in the glow of the moonlight.
Life is old but so short.
We are young we want more.

I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you got what I got, what I got, what I got
Who needs air?

You don't need air.

My addiction to danger like the rush of the sea,
Like a wave on the rocks the lessons crash down on me.
I don't need to prove the world to you only to myself.
So step back and look away as I dive into the swell.

I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you got what I got, what I got, what I got
Who needs air?
I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you got what I got, what I got, what I got
You don't need air.

Take me down to the river like a little child,
Take my hand and tell me its okay to be wild.
I never knew the world until I saw through your eyes,
I never knew my self until I ripped off my disguise.

I'm drowning, but I don't care,
Because when you've got what I got, what I got, what I got
Who needs air?

I have come to the realization that life is more than what I have accomplished.
And life is more then the realization that we have accomplished nothing at all.
True success is so selfless so drown in the lyrics of your life
and give up the air that you breathe.
You don't need anything.

I don't even know how to title this.

My life.

If I sit back and think about it, my life seems very different. If I were looking at myself through someone else's perspective, I honestly don't know what I'd think.

So, I... well, I'm stumped. I have a million thoughts floating around in my brain, yet I can't get them out. Partly because of the fact that people I know read this... Haha, now is one of the times that I kind of just need to write; now is also one of the times I long for anonymity. Arg, that word reminds me of Statistics, which I'm failing.

I look again at myself right now. Who am I? I ask that, honestly, direly, to no one but myself. And it's sad because there's just silence. No one telling me the answer... it's just me. I suppose I AM who I choose to be; no one can make me do otherwise... But I am easily influenced. People impact me. Big time. I don't know why I let other people influence me so much, but I do.

Long pause. I'm at a loss for words.

There's so much I want to say, but can't.

Can't concentrate on anything...

I don't know what's wrong with me... why can't I concentrate!? My huge stats final is due tomorrow... oh boy. But, I can't seem to shake this feeling. I just doze off, constantly...

It's actually amazing.

My life is insane.

Ok, yeah, I know, I know-- I'm slacking on posting. Jeez, was Saturday really the last time I posted? I guess so. Well, I'm justified, I suppose; I've been uber busy. So, let's see, Saturday night I played gamecube with my sister and Megan for a long while before I conked out due to exhaustion. Oh, but before that I was half watching a movie and half talking on the phone for forever. Um, let's see. On Sunday? Well, I didn't really do much, I guess. Monday was... let's see. Oh, right! Yeah, Monday was pretty chill. I, um, went to the library after school. To study (ahem, cram) for the AP stats test... that was cool. Yesterday was a bit wonky. So, I went to English and Precal, then hung out til 1, when the AP test started. Ugh. We got out at almost 5. It was intense, I'll just say that. Today (finally I'm caught up to today), was interesting. So, I read a lot for a part in Macbeth. We're almost done reading it. I like, actually, quite a bit. At first I wasn't so sure about it, but it's really getting good. And it helps that she explains it, makes it lively, animated, and interesting. In bio I took that test.. ouch. I actually went to Student Assistant for once, I typed up this thing, talked to her a little, and then left early because she had to go get an allergy shot. At lunch I did bio, and ACTUALLY FINISHED CORRECTING A TEST! Now only, what, 2 more to go? Computer Science was interesting; I met John. And I wrote this super long function. And it was chill. After school, I talked to Mr. Y, John, and Derek for a while... that was ok. Ah, then, um, ... I said a goodbye of sorts and left, and Julie, Kelsey and I went shopping... Ha, after about a million eons and a lot of hard work (and a lot of laughs), I am now the proud owner of a prom dress. Uh, haha, here's the thing: It's pink. Yeah, that's right. Pink. Well, I like it anyway. It'll be fine. Ahhhh, but now, I have this gigantor Stats project due tomorrow, and I have a million little slips of paper around me. I have to decipher them, and compile them somehow into a neat, polished, typed report due at 11:05 tomorrow. Oh well, I'm sure I can do it. But, right now, to calm my nerves a bit, I'm enjoying a huge bowl of cookie-dough ice cream. I <3 cookie dough ice cream.

"Wow.."

Ok, I'm finally posting. But, let me warn you, so much freakin' stuff has happened in the past, what, 3 days? that I cannot possibly cram it all here. Nor do I want to, actually, considering people I know read this. So, let's see. Thursday was pretty much the coolest thing ever. I ditched English (Ok, let me back up, Ms. B wasn't there, so we weren't doing anything anyway). And it was sort of justified, as in Mr. Y signed a note, so yeah. Then I went to bio, and it was pretty chill. During Student Aiding I went to the loft again, which was really, really cool. I went to lunch, and got stung by a bee. Now, that wasn't actually that much fun, but it was still quite an experience. My finger got so swollen I couldn't bend it, and I was actually in a great deal of pain. I went late to comp sci because the nurse wanted to "monitor" me and my sting.
Friday, yesterday, was kind of ridiculous. I.. yeah, it's beyond ridiculous. I don't even remember what we did.. in Precal we melted pennies, that was cool.. I didn't really do much else, but I was pretty excited about seeing Spider Man 3. So, yeah, at 6:45 I saw it. I... yeah, I liked it. The... ending was kind of... surprising. Eh.. Yeah. That's about all.
Today I got up bright and early to take the SAT (again). My score from the first time actually isn't very bad at all, so I wasn't so worried. Anyway, it went alright, but my neck was insanely sore. It might have had something to do with the fact that I sat in the very front row at the movie, and, yeah, it was kind of difficult to see..
And, after the SAT, Kels, Julie and I chilled (for once which was cool) at the pond. Oh yeah, we got and Indian taco and I spilled chile all over my pants. And my shirt... Anyway, then we drove home. Now I'm here babysitting my buddy Megan. She's kind of sadistic and kind of reminds me of how Lady Macbeth might've been at age 8. She throws stuff at me, and she pinches me. Hard. Ok, I'm going to go.

But, basically, to sum up these past few days that I haven't posted... "wow."

Mayday, mayday..

Hm, well, happy May, I suppose. I'm in comp sci, and am rather bored, so I decided to post. I am.. very, very hungry at the moment (I was going to say starving, but then I realized that, no, I'm not really starving; that would be a lie). Today's kind of a ho-hum kind of day. It feels like nothing much has really happened, so there's not really much worth posting even. We read more of Macbeth in English. Took a test in bio. Typed something, copied stuff, talked a little in Student Aiding. At lunch I did a worksheet. Now we're not doing anything. That's really just about the extent of my day. Not much action. And there's no tennis today because varsity has a game or something. I need food. Ice cream, maybe. Oh, I guess worth talking about is the yb party yesterday after school. It went pretty well. We ate tons of enchiladas and other food, played pictionary, and made t-shirts. Well, I'd better go; we're being summoned by Mr. Y.